ten

Ten!!!
Oh my. This is too much, it really is.
The pictures of all the firsts are etched in my mind. Looking with my heart in my throat at the line on the stick. Stroking my growing tummy while whispering prayers of health. Hearing the sounds of life of this miracle still unseen. Holding miraculous perfection after more than 30 pain-filled and teary hours. And never wanting to let go...
And now he stands tall, with a look of such Independence in his eyes and something else.....he is in that place of wondering and its wonderful and horrible all at the same time.
Birthday love to you and always, my boy.